Beth and My Journey into OneitisPosted: July 29, 2012 | |
i originally posted this back in june of 2011, back when i first started this blog. i had a few (read- BB, Badger, and Yohami) regular readers back then. they asked about my oneitis (it was a subject being discussed on the various blogs).
i met beth awkwardly. we’d exchanged words while she was looking over the HM wall of medal of honor winners. i saw her looking and explained the wall to her. that was it. well, she came to my clinic (she was ill) and was seen and put on SIQ (sick in quarters). i filled out her paperwork and told her to come back the next day (i out ranked her, and was the man running the clinic then).
she came back the next day and one of the guys BEGGED to get her checked in. whatev. i soon got a request from the doctor she was seeing to meet with me. turns out……she saw a different doctor and she was SIQ for the weekend. I FELT AWFUL!!!!. look, she was sick…..no joke. so for me to drag her out of bed for an unnecessary appointment upset me.
long story short……..she told me to ask her out. from our first date…..i was her’s. we slept together on the first night and spent every moment we could together. the problem was….was that she was leaving to go back to LA in 3 month’s. not a promising thing….but i REALLY liked this girl.
her last weekend in NO she disappeared. no clue where she went. this was the beginning of the end for us. the last week she was in NO all she could do is argue with me. i eventually wrote her off a day or so later.
it was finally her time to go she and came to see me the day she took off. it was awkward. we talked 2-3 times after she left. but i didn’t feel any connection. i let her go.
i ended up leaving new orleans to take to a ship in Japan. it took me 2 years to get into another relationship. i.was.crushed.
i ran into her while i was in Spain (told her that i still loved her), went to LA to see her. it was……odd. that died out when i went to kuwait. we crossed paths AGAIN last summer (of 2010). she was going to meet me in NO, but it never happened. this was my learning point…..
i ended it, before we were supposed to meet in NO. she was draining me. i realized that despite how i felt, we just weren’t “right”. i was pondering “us” and had a moment of clarity where i honestly heard “let her go” in my head. then everything made sense. i wasn’t angry or confused, i felt a deep sense of peace in “letting her go”. i called her right away and ended it. she was FURIOUS, and sent me a series of VERY angry texts. i simply replied by asking her to quit texting me. i deleted any and all contact info i had about her. i’ll post a pic of her, but won’t keep it up very long- just to give some perspective to the story.
i’m not going to bad mouth her on my blog, she’s a great girl and i learned a lot about myself from her. but she’s the girl who broke me. and now….i’m better for it. as hurt as i was, the experience was a MAJOR learning point for me- the foolish boy in me, was dead.
Danny, replaced him. and here i am now. stay up.